I can finally tell everyone.
I didn't know if I was supposed to keep it all secretive or anything... So I hadn't been telling that many people about it.
But now I can.
Are you ready?

Someone is paying for me to have 5 of my songs professionally recorded and mastered, and put on a CD. Then, they are sending them out to radio stations...

So my friends, I would like to tell you that all my  "dreams" that I dismissed as impossible, are now semi-possible.
I don't plan to be a "rock-star" I dont want to be a "rock-star", but getting my music heard is THRILLING. 
I am ecstatic right now, and don't really know what to do with myself. I am so incredibly excited.

So ladies and gentlemen, there is my big and exciting news. I will update once the recording starts (which should be in the next week or so) and let you know how things goooooooooooooooooooo.

OH MAN. Who wants a free CD? I will hook you up ;)!

So, I don't really write alot.

That's a lie, I write every night.

But I don't write anything of importance.

Well, that depends on what you think "importance" is defined as.

Lately I have been drawing alot, and taking pictures... and I found that it relaxes me.
This week is and has been SO stressful with finals, and the mounting sadness of the graduates leaving... so now I have about 10 billion sketches and photos... yeah.

Something has been bothering me lately, and I can't tell what it is.
I just feel like something has been terrible wrong and it needs fixing, yet I can't fix it because it is unspeakable.

Weird? Yeah.

I am planning on going on a road trip senior summer, around the US. I have it all planned out, I need 3000 dollars total, a guitar, my friend erica, a car, and a good and accurate map.
It's going to be amazing.
We are going to head straight for New York, stopping to look at sheep on a hill and quoting "I wish I could quit you" in Montana. Swim in all 5 great lakes... then be amazing in New York, hoping to run into someone famous.

Then we are going to go down to florida and live through a hurricane... haha right. and check out New Orleans... And do a whole bunch of other stuff... like looking at the worlds biggest piece of chewing gum, or the worlds smelliest pig... stuff like that.

I dont know why I am describing it now, I wont be ON it until another year.

Oh, and I might be getting the lipper pierced soon. Yeeeaah.

Honestly, the only words I can put down right now are "you are beautiful"

I tried to write a poem.
I tried to write all the memories, songs, and dreams.
And all I came up with, in the end, was "you are beautiful"

And I am trying to describe how I feel right now, and I get a sentence down, only to press the backspace button and retry.

I can't even describe it.
I wanted to yell at you to stop, to stop time, to stop life, to stay right where you were and not change.

But I couldn't.
Instead I start yelling at myself, wanting myself to change so you wont. 

And I keep hitting the backspace button.

"you are beautiful" Damnit.

The four unseperable kids from eastside have completely fallen apart.
I want it back. 

My vision is blurred
Memories are pouring out my eyes.
and all I can come up with
is "you are beautiful"
So keep walking dear
Your life has just begun
Keep singing dear
to live will be an awfully big adventure. 

Damnit. This is terrible.
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